[ Why is it up to him? Why does this have to be his decision?! He's not ready! He's never even considered this within arm's reach of possibility before!! And now he's here having to make the decision for the both of them--! This isn't like matters of state, where he can rely on logic or the comfort of rational problem-solving; this is more like when he asked the King for mercy on Nikolas's behalf, only more.
This is trying to make a decision about what he, Winter Quertis, might want, and for a few long seconds he just clutches Nikolas's hand as tightly as possible. His own fingers are chilled. ]
I... I would rather like it if...
[ He can say it. He can do this! He can get the words out. ]
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Date: 2017-12-05 02:50 am (UTC)[ Why is it up to him? Why does this have to be his decision?! He's not ready! He's never even considered this within arm's reach of possibility before!! And now he's here having to make the decision for the both of them--! This isn't like matters of state, where he can rely on logic or the comfort of rational problem-solving; this is more like when he asked the King for mercy on Nikolas's behalf, only more.
This is trying to make a decision about what he, Winter Quertis, might want, and for a few long seconds he just clutches Nikolas's hand as tightly as possible. His own fingers are chilled. ]
I... I would rather like it if...
[ He can say it. He can do this! He can get the words out. ]
I'd like to have what I want for once, Nikolas.