I CAN TELL YOU LITERALLY LIKE 9 COMMENT ROUNDS LATER THAT GIL IS FULLY AWARE OF THE SOMETHING.
I think you actually articulated that whole element a lot better than I did cuz that's definitely a part of Gil vs his feelings on Nikolas too, just like. HAS BEEN ACCUSED OF FALLING FOR NIKOLAS not just by Winter himself (and i think he was able to truth thread an answer like NO?? he would've been able to do that about Hatter too though ='D perceptions) but by Elliot etc.
It's very much mutual possessive needy feedback loop where gil is NOT OBLIVIOUS AT ALL to how much he wants it and in fact for him to BE ABLE to pursue it with Nikolas is. SUCH A THING. THAT IS HUGE. Nikolas is the best friend he never had and he's safe and he loves him and needs him and he's needed and loved it's so good and I STILL JUST WANT MOREMOREMORE AND THAT SEEMS TO BE WORKIN OUT JUST FINE
BUT IT ISN'T ANYTHING LIKE WHAT I FEEL FOR OZ (THAT IS TRUE)
SUCH FRIENDS way to be identical here guys
Though instead of the small "I wish he were mine" it's "I wish I was his" cuz that's how Gil rolls
this threesome thing after one of the more awful moments in gil's life (WHICH, REALLY, IS IMPRESSIVE, I JUST START LAUGHING EVERY TIME AJ ADDS A COMMENT) is so much neediness too. He's being entirely surrounded in BEING WANTED and it's SO GOOD it's sooo good. GOOD ENOUGH THAT IT'S ALLOWING HIM TO GO FOR IT!! And so there is this EMOTIONAL REACH OUT TO WINTER AND NIKOLAS where Winter is new and causing new comparison-born insight (BY BEING NEW offering something right now that nikolas can't, but that's another ramble. but it is noteworthy that gil is now in ANY SENSE slotting Nikolas as "a given" because that is how much he trusts Nikolas). It is abruptly starkly obvious how badly he wants and needs Nikolas and how much he trusts him and how he is apparently capable of making him feel better at the worst of times
PS fresh scars will become more prominent later, they are kind of not as stark now due his skin being kind of... fre..sh...
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Date: 2013-10-30 07:34 pm (UTC)I think you actually articulated that whole element a lot better than I did cuz that's definitely a part of Gil vs his feelings on Nikolas too, just like. HAS BEEN ACCUSED OF FALLING FOR NIKOLAS not just by Winter himself (and i think he was able to truth thread an answer like NO?? he would've been able to do that about Hatter too though ='D perceptions) but by Elliot etc.
It's very much mutual possessive needy feedback loop where gil is NOT OBLIVIOUS AT ALL to how much he wants it and in fact for him to BE ABLE to pursue it with Nikolas is. SUCH A THING. THAT IS HUGE. Nikolas is the best friend he never had and he's safe and he loves him and needs him and he's needed and loved it's so good and I STILL JUST WANT MOREMOREMORE AND THAT SEEMS TO BE WORKIN OUT JUST FINE
BUT IT ISN'T ANYTHING LIKE WHAT I FEEL FOR OZ (THAT IS TRUE)
SUCH FRIENDS way to be identical here guys
Though instead of the small "I wish he were mine" it's "I wish I was his" cuz that's how Gil rolls
this threesome thing after one of the more awful moments in gil's life (WHICH, REALLY, IS IMPRESSIVE, I JUST START LAUGHING EVERY TIME AJ ADDS A COMMENT) is so much neediness too. He's being entirely surrounded in BEING WANTED and it's SO GOOD it's sooo good. GOOD ENOUGH THAT IT'S ALLOWING HIM TO GO FOR IT!! And so there is this EMOTIONAL REACH OUT TO WINTER AND NIKOLAS where Winter is new and causing new comparison-born insight (BY BEING NEW offering something right now that nikolas can't, but that's another ramble. but it is noteworthy that gil is now in ANY SENSE slotting Nikolas as "a given" because that is how much he trusts Nikolas). It is abruptly starkly obvious how badly he wants and needs Nikolas and how much he trusts him and how he is apparently capable of making him feel better at the worst of times
PS fresh scars will become more prominent later, they are kind of not as stark now due his skin being kind of... fre..sh...